Wednesday, March 30, 2011

playlist and sleep and sweat

My playlist for 2011 continues to grow...please offer your suggestions. You know I enjoy almost all music...really depends on my mood, but for the most part, I truly dislike country music.

Three adds today - two courtesy of Sean D.

Nelly - Heart of a Champion
Roy Jones Jr. - Can't be Touched
Eminem - Till I Collapse (Eminem gets me fired up like no other artist)

Yes, I am finally admitting....I have been sleeping. I don't want to say it too loudly, but yes, I am. About 10 days now. Last night was stellar. In bed with the sun still going down with two Benadryl to help (my alarm was going off at 4:45). A little magazine reading and I melted into my pillows. I love that feeling of utter smoosh into bed. ahhhh. Woke up once around 1am and felt like it was morning, probably because I had already been alseep for almost 5 hours and worried I wouldn't fall back asleep, but I did. It is amazing what a solid nights sleep will do for me. I am so happy to be sleeping again....but, again, don't want to jinx myself. I'll keep drinking my tea at bedtime and refraining from caffeine during the day and oh, doing the two things my doctor told me to do last week....maybe I'll share those with another time.

My workout this morning was my favorite mini duathlon runbikerun- which I have not gone hard on for a few weeks now. I think part of the reason I slept so well was due to the anticipation of a real-live crash and burn Wednesday - a Wednesday I have not been able to do in awhile :)

I did a 10 minute treadmill warm up - started slow and built up a little speed. Went right to spin class for 45 min on the bike - I didn't tear it up like I had hoped, but overally it was good. From there straight back to the treadmill for another 45 min. I started slow again and built up to about zone 3 and even through in a total of about 10-12 minutes of hills too. A good cool-down, stretch and even 95 abs (thank you for very little dizziness today) followed by some lats, med ball chops, tricep pushdowns and OH med ball throws. Ooooeeee. I am good to go for the day. I really need an ice bath, but (no buts, Erin) okay, I really would like to get in the ice bath; I hope I can make time for one today.

I wore my FR today - looking briefly at the totals before I left for work I am pleased with what my HR looked like during the bike and the runs...nothing in zone 5 (yay) and mostly zone 3. Good deal. Avg HR on bike 130 with a 161 max (on the climbs, love the standing climbs) and on the second run an avg of 137 and a 154 max. The whole run workout was below 80%max - yessss. Maybe the new "easy" is working out for me - I think it's too soon to tell, but....maybe not.

Did I mention I ran OUTSIDE on Saturday morning? Holy cow - yes, I ran OUTSIDE. To make that report brief here are some stats for you:
8 miles
Easy with a hard finish last 1.5 miles
COLD
DAMN COLD
Purple parts of my body post run - oops
Frozen hydration - oops
Cold
Happy :)

Wednesday, March 23, 2011

snow day, sugar and stats

I started the day out pretty nicely...this was the earliest I have woke up in well over one week (5am), I got ready for spin class and headed out the door with a hunch...that yes, my sad thoughts came true for the first time ever: my Corolla wasn't going to make it out of the garage and out the driveway due to the snow drifts. I was a little bummed - and I felt badly because I signed up for the class and now my spot wasn't going to be used. I didn't feel too badly since the weather was the reason and I am confident I wasn't the only no-show.

Insert big :) here: I could rectify my situation because I own a CycleOps now! I saved my pennies for 3 months and used a giftcard from Christmas as well as my REI dividends (this was all planned) and was able to walk out the store with it in my own arms last Saturday.

Snow drifts? No biggie! I could ride in my apt and then go downstairs for a little high intensity, yet short, run on the TM. And I did just that. And it was sweaty and lovely and better than I imagined. And then I had some cheerios with soy. And then a fruit smoothie. And then a little nap. And then lunch. And by then it was only 12noon of my snow day.

And then my snow day went downhill - long story short because of the stupid details related to "the big dance" (and no, not the NCAA tournament, the SAAC Semi-Formal). I thought I adverted the crisis at 8:30am with an email, but nope. Just because campus IS CLOSED that did not stop anyone from wanting everything from me! I ended up having to go to campus and had to lock myself in the training room and yes, I actually ignored knocks at the door of S-A trying to get in. The door even has a window and I just ignored them out there. And I do not feel bad about that. Once I got home I went to the bag of peanut butter mm&m's that was reserved for making krispie treats for work. Once I start I cannot control myself. Ugh.

I hope, hope, hope that I got everything taken care of...I have not received an email back yet as I am sure "she" finally went home so now I just hope this doesn't keep me awake at night - and that tomorrow it actually IS all taken care of. More m&m's. Sweet snow day.

I had to do something to try and combat all the sugar I had this afternoon so what better than a huge bowl of oatmeal and flax to try and absorb all the sugar I consumed.


I can feel the oatmeal and flax in my stomach turning and grooving and hopefully sucking up all the sugar from the m&m's and taking it with them when they leave :)

How about some non-food related stats?!

Since January 1, 2011 ...
Swim: 60,800 yds in the pool (approx 20h 55min)
Bike: 28 hours (no idea on mileage since it's been all indoors)
Run: 179.5 miles on two feet


Last week was my sicky week and I managed to put in 1h 35min in running and elliptical towards the end of the week. Looking at the totals I am pleased. It seems like a lot, but it's all relative...My first race is April 29, only about 36 days away. It will be a good challenge and more like a hard workout as the race is a modified sprint triathlon. I'm looking forward to it despite still trying to figure out how to train now that I had that life-awakening sicky week. I will modify as I go until I find what works best for me. I realize that may take all year and maybe even longer, and I am totally okay with that.

I do know what key workouts (i.e. two 4-5 hour rides, couple of long bricks, etc.) I need to do before my A race in Lawrence. Which BTW is only like 80 days away - HAHA!

With my North Star goal of a full IM in 2012 I am prepared to work on the details as I go. I now know that "easy" needs to be easy-peasy and that my definition of "hard" is changing as well :) :) :)

Damn sugar...I usually allow myself one "eat" day each week - today looks to be that day. Who wants ice cream tonight? We could sprinkle some protein powder on it to make it feel a little less non-healthy ;)

Tuesday, March 15, 2011

down but not out

As I write this I feel my waistband expanding - my latest "treat" is doing a very good job of covering up any abdominals I might have been working hard at exposing lately. Golden Grahams. (I blame Sheena, she told me I deserved a little treat from Target when I was there the other night.) Golden Grahams are so good and sooo sugary a pregnant woman could consume a bowl full instead of the syrupy "drink" they give you for a glucose tolerance test. Yes, this "healthy" cereal that is a "whole grain" vitamin-fortified cereal is THAT sugary. In fact, (of course I did the math) consuming 3 servings of Golden Grahams dry (that would be 2.25 cups, not a lot really) yields nearly as much sugar as one can of Coke or Mountain Dew. Gross. For the same amount of sugar you can have 33 cups of Cheerios. I did the math.

So mentally I am struggling - if you haven't picked up on that yet. But, the real reason other than eating Golden Grahams is that I am "sick" AGAIN. I was put on an antibiotic on the 3rd of March for a sinus infection which seemed to be effective at reducing the number of times I needed to blow my nose, the amount of drainage down my throat, and the pain that hung out across my nose and forehead. I was also able to resume my training schedule.

Wait...look at the calendar...that means I went two weeks without major problems? 2 weeks? Well, shit, it must be time to having something else go haywire....enter a new issue.

So last week Wednesday night and into Thursday and Friday I was feeling mildly nauseous. I chalked it up to too much PB Wednesday night and called it a stupid mistake. My workouts were going fine and in fact I felt better during the workouts than I did after. My neck had been a bit stiff, but I figured it was due to one of my 2011 goals of 100+ sit-ups/day and perhaps due in part to my super 3700 yd pool workout on Friday night. I was thoroughly convincing myself that it wasn't "a touch of the flu." Flu? Not on my agenda. Not my style. I had 5 workouts to do Friday (2), Saturday (1) and Sunday (2) and I would reach my weekly goal of 11h45m of total time. I was so pumped. The super pool workout was #2 for Friday.

Saturday morning (workout #3) I got up feeling less than great, and shortened my planned workout by 15 minutes mostly due to running short on time for my big day out with friends and partly due to not feeling super. I threw in the white flag while biking and running that morning. At that point I arrived at the concept that this level of training would REQUIRE me to get more than 7-8 hours of sleep/night. Okay, okay, I get it. I will do that. Now...if I could only sleep at night...but, that's not the point here....

I finished my workout, drove home, ate, stripped down for a shower and noticed that I had some sort of red rash on my torso - just the front of me. I figured it was due to my workout shirt/sweat. I showered and made my way down to the MOA to have lunch with my BFF, her husband B and her brand new baby O! Ate a ton (like my appetite ever goes away) and then made my way back up to MG for dinner (like 2 hours later, ugh) with K and A. I was cranky and I apologized to them for my crankiness, but I figured I was just tired and full and sort of irritated with the conversations we were having. We were rushed too - which never helps conversations with good friends. Drove home and CRASHED. Planned on sleeping in...

Woke up Sunday morning with what looked like a sunburn all over my face, my chest, parts of my arms, my hips and upper legs and my face was swollen. I looked sunburnt and I felt like it. Hot. Literally and physically. PANIC. Being someone that normally does not eat out much, let alone two meals in one day, I was trying to blame the swelling on all the sodium I had consumed on Saturday. I called my mom again. (I called her Saturday night before I crashed to ask about the rash - she thought it could be due to the antibiotics. I had one dose left which I took before I crashed.) As I was talking to her I found the Rx sheet that came with the antibiotic and read it to her - I had about 5 of the "CONTACT YOUR DOCTOR IMMEDIATELY IF YOU EXPERIENCE ANY OF THESE SYMPTOMS." So, naturally, PANIC time. I went to the ER since an urgent care facility didn't open up for another 90 minutes. My BP was 147/86 holy crap! Much to the amusement and curiosity of the 2 nurses and 1 doctor that saw me, I did not have a fever, but I sure felt like it and looked like it. My neck pain was getting worse, my throat was sore, I felt nauseous, and so tired. I felt like I could have just passed out right on the green ER bed sheets. After a lot of questioning I left with the following diagnosis. An allergic reaction to the Bactrim (yes, I now have my first official allergy) with possible meningitis. WHAT!?!?!? The deadly virus!?!??!?! PANIC. The stiff neck is the #1 symptom of the meningitis along with a fever and sensitivity to light. I was told to take a double dose of Benadryl along with ibuprofen, monitor my symptoms and come back to the ER if any of the symptoms worsened. Monitor my symptoms while passed out from the Benadryl? Ok, sure. I took my temperature about once/hour for the rest of the day. No fever. I made sure I could touch my chin to my chest about once/15 minutes. No problem there; I just look goofy doing that. I did take a little nap around 3pm which was sandwiched between watching....14 episodes of Friends (Season 5). Yes, 14 episodes on Sunday. That is more TV than I have watched in the last 3 weeks combined.

I woke up feeling a lot better on Monday, but the rash was spreading down my legs and arms. Fortunately my face was not as red - so I took a little field trip to BN in the late afternoon to read some magazines and get out of my crazy apt. That helped a lot. My neck pain was practically gone and the nausea was gone too as far as I could tell. I slept another 9-10 hours last night and woke up with no neck pain (yay), no throat pain (yay) and itching like a FREAK. This itching woke me up several times during the night (damn it), but thank you to Benadryl that helped with it. I was so miserable from the itchy I don't care how much Benadryl I had to take. I thought I would shower and straighten my hair to help me feel better about myself as I am starting to feel like a fatty from not working out the last two days. WRONG idea. I could barely stand up to straighten my hair - it literally exhausted me. All day today I have had zero energy. I can barely walk up the stairs. The elevator is for wimps - and I'm not a wimp. You know how much I HATE being contained inside, let alone in this tiny stupid apt, when the sun is coming out, and all I want to do is go for a little workout, and I can't. wow. Just writing this I am struggling to keep my eyes open.

I am looking at what I can do to revise my workout schedule - as I wasn't able to finish last week's plan and this week is already shot. At this point I am not sure what I will be able to do tomorrow. Just getting out the door for my 10:00 meeting (rescheduled from Monday) sounds like a chore.

I admit - I am down. But, I am NOT out. I look at my race calendar and am so excited about it, but again, just thinking about a race exhausts me let alone worrying my workout clothes don't fit me anymore. I worry about being "ready." I get sad about it. Again, I was doing so well again for two weeks only to meet another bump in the road. I need to recognize how I could have prevented this past 6 weeks - particularly the past 4 days - from happening. I'm sure some of it was out of my control, but what could I have controlled? I just don't know...

Yes, I am down. I am finally admitting defeat. I am throwing in the towel - I need more rest - I get it. I get it. I will rest more. I will make a short nap part of as many days as my schedule will allow. I used to be more resilient. I also used to be 27. I'm 32. I'm not out. I am not out.

But, I am going to take two more Benadryl and go back to bed.

Thursday, March 10, 2011

Just to get in the mood...

 
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Day of Awesomeness

So, today is International Day of Awesomeness!
Awesome!

How about I focus on what was awesome for me today!
*1*I was able to sleep decently last night (and since that includes past 12:00midnight that falls on 3/10 - Awesome.

*2*My workout was a planned 60 min run - which of course I did on the TM because it's too icy outside to even think about running in the dark yet. I forgot to pay attention to what my focus was for the run so I figured I would just go as I feel.
-Started out at an easy pace for 30 min and figured at that point what is the use of paying attention to my HR when I have been feeling like I am now training to run slow - argh. I could also tell that I was wasn't feeling super, so I needed a plan for the 2nd half of the run.
-I was damn determined to push the whole 60 minutes. Think, Kansas.
-So, my plan went to run intervals with incline. Last night I read an article on the benefits of hill workouts. Not the first time I've read this. I need to do it more. I did 30, 45, 60, 75 second intervals at 1% and 2% with a pick up in speed at 0% right after and then 1-2 mins of easy running. Changing the speed/incline often helps the time pass. Watching another news story on Charlie Sheen was NOT up my alley this morning.
-I was feeling good!! So, I pushed it a little more till I was running at the 55 min mark at 6.9 which is up there. yay me! Now...to get my sluggish padunkadunk to the pool tonight...

*3*I had to be at the clinic at 7:30 this morning (in my smelly, sweaty glory post run, like literally 7:20 I got off the TM) for a consultation with a student at CSB and TJ, my ol' boss. So the Awesome part was seeing 5 of my ol' coworkers - which was super! I should add that while at the clinic in my smelly, sweaty glory I seriously got sick of my own stink - lol - that's what I get for not showering after yesterday's brick workout. It was baaaad.

*4*I've been craving something with substance lately...imagine that. I gave in and I had a freshly made for me hamburger! I dunked it in ketchup and it was Awesome. This was the first burger I've had at our new eating establishment at school. Everyone and I mean everyone, has tried the burgers and raves about them. I gave in. No cheese and no fries. Perfection.

*5*I was asked to do some personal training with a high school girl I knew from my days at SHS. We met this afternoon to go over some goals that she has and to discuss what our plan was. I really enjoyed doing this - and look forward to working with her over the next couple of weeks.

5 items of Awesome on 3/10 is pretty good, I think! Right now I'm thinking no on the pool tonight. Sleep would be a better idea. I'm on day 6/10 of antibiotics, I want to make sure I stay on the up and up. I looked at my schedule and if I do 2 workouts tomorrow, 1 on Saturday and 2 on Sunday I will come very close to meeting my goal of 11h45m for the week. I will fall short of my goal of 3-2/day workouts, but I am okay with that as my other goal of one brick workout was a huge success yesterday and Sunday is looking to be a monster day of workouts. I'm hoping...and I can't wait :) :) :)

"Fail to plan. Plan to fail."

Sunday, March 6, 2011

A-Z

One thing from each letter of the alphabet that has to do with me. ("B" is an exception)

A: Apples - An apple a day keeps the doctor away. I have believed in this for as long as I could believe.

B: Baseball, Barnes & Noble, Berries, Bananas - Baseball is my all time favorite sport to watch. B&N is my favorite store to browse, wander, kill time and spend any extra money I have in. Berries, particularly strawberries, are an absolute essential in my fridge (in the middle of winter I struggle...too expensive so I go frozen). Bananas are a gem of a recovery food and are fantastic frozen.

C: Corolla - My reliable, efficient Toyota. I love my car and all that it does for me. 73K on it as of last week.

D: Divorce - It's over with. Is there someone else? "No, but there is a Dream of someone else." *(see "Y" as well)*

E: ESPN - The cable channel for the sports maniac in me. If I could only have one channel this would be it.

F: Family - A pretty sweet group of individuals mainly consisting of my dad, mom, sister, two grandmas, an extra special aunt and uncle, three cousins and their two kids, a handful of great-aunts and great-uncles and second cousins. Love them all.

G: Gratitude - Everyday, I am thankful for everything on this list, and more.

H: Hawaii - I have spent one week on Maui (with a brief stop in Honolulu) and would go back tomorrow if I had the chance. The beauty is beyond what you see on tv or on paper. The laid-back lifestyle is incredible. I will get there again soon. I just have to.

I: iPod - Currently holds over 8600 songs, several movies, tv shows, podcasts and photos. I am lucky to have 3 of them (classic, nano and shuffle) and they each serve a special purpose. To say I am obsessed may be putting it lightly.

J: Jack - This is my favorite and first choice for a baby boy name.

K: Kamakawiwo'ole', Israel - My favorite musician from the great Hawaiian islands. His music puts me in a place like few other artists can.

L: Lefse - A staple on the Miller-family Thanksgiving table. Supposedly my great-aunt Helen would make it. I've always loved it. With just a little butter.

M: Music - I love almost all music. Save for the "angry" sounding music, I am a fan of everything. Soft rock, hard rock, hip hop, classical, christian, alternative...it's all on my iPod. I also love playing music which lately only consists of playing the piano when I am staying at my parents in Duluth.

N: Nuun - I tried Nuun (pronounced "noon") for the first time over a year ago. I'm hooked. It's an electrolyte replacement tablet that you drop in water (it fizzes). Provides electrolytes without any sugar (like Gatorade or PowerAde). I drink it daily. They introduced about six new flavors recently and I would like to get my hands on them.

O: Oboe - Not gonna lie, I was a decent musician many years ago. The oboe was my primary wind instrument. It has such a live sound compared to the clarinet, which was the first instrument I started playing.

P: Peanut Butter - I will never be without. Interestingly, my dad is severely allergic. I am grateful my parents let me eat it regardless. Just always lick the knife (or spoon) clean before putting it in the sink.

Q: Quinoa - A whole grain that contains all essential amino acids (which other grains do not). Easier to prepare than rice, it has become a staple in my diet. It sits better in my stomach than rice does as well.

R: Running - I run. I have actually started to enjoy running even. I have never ever considered myself a "runner." I started running track in 7th grade and since then have completed many races from 5K to Half-Marathon including triathlons of varying distances....so, I'm not sure at what point my brain will allow me to consider myself a "runner." I wonder if there is a "speed" I need to attain or, a "distance" I need to cover before I think of myself as a runner?

S: Shoes - I'm not a typical girl with a closet full of shoes. I've never gone into DSW shoe warehouse, started drooling and left with 3 boxes. I've done that in a running shoe store - left with multiple boxes of the same shoe. I can't remember the last pair of non-training shoes I have bought other than a pair of Chacos sandals two years ago. I have my favorite brands: Chacos, Asics, Dansko - that's all I need to be happy.

T: Triathlon - This is my dream. This is who I am. After getting my first taste of it in 1997 (14 years ago? yikes!) I have really started focusing on training in this lifestyle the past year and a half. When I am training is when I am the happiest. It's a lifestyle and it suits me well at this point in my journey called life (AKA My Rockstar Tour). swimbikerun :) :) :)

U: Undies - Boy cut or hipster are the best. Bikini style for workouts. I don't care for cotton - ever. Can't live without them so you might as well find cute ones and yes, I have been known to dance around in just undies on my own time.

V: Vegas - I'm not a vacation every six months or every year kind of girl. I wish. On a complete whim I bought a flight to Vegas last July and never regretted it. If you haven't been there I highly recommend it. It is as hot as they say it is. It's awesome.

W: Water - Blessed to be raised on Lake Superior I was spoiled with the great "taste" of water straight out of the tap. I drink it non-stop and I swim in it. I love the stuff.

X: XT - My Canon Rebel XT camera. I bought it about 4 years ago and I imagine it has captured well over 20,000 images during that time. An investment that has not let me down.

Y: "You've Got Mail" - In my top 5 movies of all time. Probably top 3. I love love love Tom Hanks and I love Meg Ryan. I have it on VHS, DVD and it's on my iPod. I think there was a stretch of time that I watched it (or until I fell asleep) every night for close to a month. I have it memorized start to finish.

Z: Zoot - My first triathlon racing kit. It's black and teal with a just a little yellow on it. The company makes awesome training and racing apparel.